June 2016


There’s a hollowness.

There’s a hollowness about it that I cannot seem to grasp.
The burden of feeling the heavy nothingness between your fingertips, a weight that is simultaneously daunting and absent – here is where you’re lost.

I want nothing more than to return home, at utter ignorance of the sirens of the seas.

For one who speaks of his existence through the eyes of another truly yearns to feel at peace behind his own lenses. Grant me the spectacles, for I am blind.


05/04/16, etc

I was lost.
My mind was swirling somewhere out with the cosmos.
I could no longer taste reality, though it lingered on my tongue.
Instead my heart was sinking so far beneath the deepest of sunken ships, laying barren and abandoned.
My body felt as lifeless as the ashes that remain within smoldering flames in the most scorching of fires.
My thoughts fell lifelessly into a tattered collection at my feet.
I tried so effortlessly and so desperately at the same time to piece them together to no avail.

I was lost, as signs of home were only threads of my imagination.


And so she moved.
Her body swayed into motion as if she were one with the blooms that erupted from each tree placed so elegantly around her.
She made each burst of life within the great distance disappear – as lifeless as the most brittle weed after the winter’s first frost.
Watching her was euphoric.
She had slivers of the galaxy tangled all around her fragile frame.
She was so luminous that I had forgotten that anyone else existed in this world.
She had me wrapped around her tiny fingers and I had not the strength to deny it.


Spare yourself.
Spare yourself of all the things that I am and all of the things that I am not.
Do not dare to open the cold, hollow crevices within my heart and expect to find light.
For as I see the light in all things, my heart and my mind are barren of such.
I ache to feel reality, as I feel so distant and discharged.
Spare yourself of all the things that I am, but leave me bare where I lack.

Leave me to find my own moon within my own dark skies.


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